So the Colts managed their way to the SuperBowl....

.... tapi kok rasanya biasa aja ya

Biasanya pasti gue excited berat... bahkan tadi gak ntn game nya sampe abis.. gara2 ke gereja sih.. tapi biasanya pasti gue bela2 in ke gereja sabtu sore ato minggu pagi biar bisa ntn...

terus ngeliatin nick name msn orang2... yg biasanya gak peduli sama football aja sampe pada excited gituh.. tapi.. kok gue biasa aja ya?

jujur sih.. gue seneng... tapi kok terasa ganjil aja... harusnya gue jaoh lebih seneng dari ini.. grr what is happening to me? I mean.. it's the Colts... our own Indianapolis Colts! kapan lagi coba... jarang2 Colts bisa menang playoff games... apalagi ke superbowl..

apalagi tadi.. pas gue tinggal ke gereja, Colts ngejer dari ketinggalan 21-3 jadi akhrinya menang 38-34! it's the biggest comeback ever in playoff history! But I again, I FEEL NOTHING! biasanya pasti gue bakal nyesel berat gara2 gak ntn sampe abis....

and don't give me those you-watched-too-much-football-already crap... it's NEVER enough!
no.. it's something else.....

Hatiku... beku?
maaf... keluhan di malam yg sepi...

kacau...

-censored- ™ says:
btw jeng
-censored- ™ says:
sebelon terlambat
-censored- ™ says:
saya mau bilang sesuatu
Ivan - hati yang beku.. says:
?
Ivan - hati yang beku.. says:
belingsatan?
-censored- ™ says:
ga ga
-censored- ™ says:
ini sangat serius
-censored- ™ says:
gua mau bilang
-censored- ™ says:
terima kasih sudah menjadi teman yg baik
-censored- ™ says:
mengingat ultah gua, walo gua lupa ultah loe
-censored- ™ says:
kalau gua mati duluan, lo pasti masuk orang yg gua recommendasiin buat mewariskan my good luck
-censored- ™ says:
ha ha ha
Ivan - hati yang beku.. says:
de fak
Ivan - hati yang beku.. says:
apaan coba
Ivan - hati yang beku.. says:
gue gak bisa bedain lo becanda apa serius
Ivan - hati yang beku.. says:
hahahaha
-censored- ™ says:
serius
-censored- ™ says:
walo gua sambil tawa2
-censored- ™ says:
tapi serius]
Ivan - hati yang beku.. says:
-_-'
Ivan - hati yang beku.. says:
duile
Ivan - hati yang beku.. says:
gue jg kalo gak dikasi tau bebi jg gak inget
Ivan - hati yang beku.. says:
hahahaha
-censored- ™ says:
intinya sih
-censored- ™ says:
soalnya tinggal dikit orang2 yg ngobrol sama gua semenjak beberapa bulan terakhir
-censored- ™ says:
dan lo termasuk yg sering gua goblokin dan ngobrol2 ama gua
-censored- ™ says:
jadi harus diterangkan dulu
-censored- ™ says:
seperti yg gua bilang lingkaran teman mengecil
-censored- ™ says:
jadi sebelon lingkaran saya hilang, ada baiknya bilang dulu bahwa elo adalah orang yg baik
-censored- ™ says:
jangan kapok2 ya pegi chicago
-censored- ™ says:
:p
Ivan - hati yang beku.. says:
-_-'
Ivan - hati yang beku.. says:
lo abis minum brapa banyak seh
Ivan - hati yang beku.. says:
hahaha
-censored- ™ says:
mmm
-censored- ™ says:
ga ampe sebotol
Ivan - hati yang beku.. says:
halah....


hahaha... can you see that I got pretty uncomfortable there? =p I guess this man-to-man bonding is pretty unusual for me… hehe… thanks a lot though bro ^^

Btw his nickname is not actually –censored-, can you guess who it is?

a blast from the past

I'm feeling extremely nostalgic today.. so I'm gonna post some stuff from my good ol' days with my WB13 friends.

WARNING: the following MSN conversation might offend some people, so read at your own risk :)


jangkung: DONE! says:
ji
jangkung: DONE! says:
mo ikutan ngga
jangkung: DONE! says:
maen pentil2an
jangkung: DONE! says:
peraturannya
jangkung: DONE! says:
yang namanya lukki pentilnya musti ditarik sama pemain lainnya
b1j1 says:
huanjing
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
ini fak apa gimana
jangkung: DONE! says:
yang pertama bisa narik menang
jangkung: DONE! says:
gimana ji?
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
knapa jadi banyak
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
udah gua mo siap2 kayu dulu tapi
b1j1 says:
hhhmm
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
kayunya terserah gua
b1j1 says:
kayu apaan cuk?
jangkung: DONE! says:
kayunya cuman bole digigit kalo kesakitan
jangkung: DONE! says:
gimana ji?
jangkung: DONE! says:
tertarik?
jangkung: DONE! says:
yang menang katanya dapet heisei
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
iye
jangkung: DONE! says:
dan dikasi piala
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
dapet heisei dari bandungan
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
piala bentuk TITIT
jangkung: DONE! says:
juara plitir pentil lukki
jangkung: DONE! says:
juara ppl
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
kalo jenggo ama hans maen gua bantuin support kasih piala deh
b1j1 says:
hauehauehuahe
b1j1 says:
plintir pentil luki?
b1j1 says:
boleh tuh
jangkung: DONE! says:
semakin hebat teknik plintirnya semakin banyak poinnya
jangkung: DONE! says:
tujuan permainan adalah buat pentil lukki jadi ngga jelas bentuknya

raeni has been added to the conversation.

Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
ya ? gimana tadi wat cara maennya?
jangkung: DONE! says:
wah
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
coba kasitau kita lagi
jangkung: DONE! says:
wewe gombel juga diinvite
raeni says:
apaan si
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
cepet kasitau cara pertandingannya
raeni says:
ga jelas
raeni says:
ini apaan sih?
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
gimana cara maennya wat?
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
ga mau kasitau nih?
jangkung: DONE! says:
cara maennya gini
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
ya ga jadi deh
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
hahahahahah
jangkung: DONE! says:
lukki di kasi kayu
jangkung: DONE! says:
trus untuk digigit
raeni says:
he eh
raeni says:
hah
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
terus?
raeni says:
ngapain gigit kayu
raeni says:
dodol
jangkung: DONE! says:
emang
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
hore saya punya pembela hohoho
jangkung: DONE! says:
karena lukki dodol....
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
HAHAHAHAHA
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
ADUH KOCAKNYA
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
tadi gimana wat..inti permainannya itu wat?
jangkung: DONE! says:
bawanya ibu suri kedua sih
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
peraturannya itu lho wat
jangkung: DONE! says:
curang
jangkung: DONE! says:
ngga aci
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
ahahahahahaha
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
HAHAHAHAHAA
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
ga jadi kasitau peraturan maennya?
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
hahahaha
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
ya udah deh batal
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
huahahahah
jangkung: DONE! says:
kalo gua kasi tau jadi ngga nih maennya?
b1j1 says:
ini opo toh
raeni says:
ibu suri apaan sih
raeni says:
ga tau nih
raeni says:
aneh semua
jangkung: DONE! says:
ibu wewe gombel
raeni says:
aku ga ngerti
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
hahaha apaan tu wewe gombal
jangkung: DONE! says:
itu
raeni says:
dodooooooll
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
jie..tadi gimana jie cara maennya jie?
jangkung: DONE! says:
wewe gombel tuh yang maelm2...
raeni says:
stoooopp
jangkung: DONE! says:
rambutnya panjang
b1j1 says:
entah
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
hahahaaha
jangkung: DONE! says:
trus ketawanya.... "hihihihihihi"
b1j1 says:
si howet pedut
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
ga tau apa pura2 ga tau??
raeni says:
apaan si bentar
jangkung: DONE! says:
serem.....
b1j1 says:
gue gak liatin
raeni says:
aku mo dikasi tau apaan si benernyah
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
hahahahah
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
itu ren
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
si howat mo ngajak maen
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
nama maenannya ppl..
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
singkatannya apaw at?
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
cara maennya giman tuh?
jangkung: DONE! says:
wah tanya biji deh
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
HAHAHAHAH
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
jie..gimana jie?
jangkung: DONE! says:
gua kurang ahli maennya
Skywalker April 9, 3.30pm says:
hahahah
b1j1 says:
plintir pantat luki ?
jangkung: DONE! says:
hahhahahha

This ALWAYS make me laugh :)

It is...

...sometime past three am, and I can't sleep. Well, it's not that I can't sleep. I just don't feel like sleeping. So I'll just list some random stuff that occurred to my mind...

1. it is very hard to love someone unconditionally. It is almost impossible to say 'well, as long as he/she's happy, I'm fine. I don't need anything in return' Really. It's virtually impossible. For me, at least. And for those of you that think this is about 'her', believe me, it's not.

2. there must this special hormone working when you get up in the morning. I often experience this 'special' feeling whenever I wake up in the morning. I sometimes wake up in the morning feeling so sad, that there are tears running down my face (with unknown reason). Or maybe you can just wake up smiling and feel dumb because you don't know why. The first more than the latter.

3. Uncertainties result in pain. There are so many options to choose, yet you always unsure that you follow the best one.

4. I finally found my 'weaknesses' to tell interviewers.
- Impatient: I hate waiting. Period.
- Over Analyzing: Taking down problems day by day just doesn't cut it for me.
- Impulsive: I wouldn't brag too much of this too my interviewers though. Let's just keep this between us :)


5. Some people are just afraid to say 'no' (for variety of reasons). I've learned so much this past few months that some people are actually afraid to get out of their comfort zone, to hurt other people's feeling because their inability to say no. As always, my over analyzing habit didn't make it any easier as well.

6. It is actually very hard to know what exactly going through your mind. So many expectations, considerations, analysis that pretty much shield the true intention of your mind. When this happen, you can just go back and forth what you're thinking, just to discover that the result is just virtually impossible to comprehend. Confused? So am I.

7. Ah. The lucky number 7. Well guess what, my lucky number is 21, which is 3 x 7. What does it mean? Nothing, because I don't really believe in luck. 21 is actually my favorite number because of some certain reasons. People tell me that getting a job is all about luck. Bunch of nonsense. Randomness in the universe is what causing employment to be correlated with luck. Let's face it, the world isn't linear. There are no equations in the world that can describe EXACTLY the true activities of nature. People use equations not because they exist, but to provide an explanation to CERTAIN activity. Why is -ve x -ve = +ve? Because it works. So for those people that believe getting a job is all about luck, I feel really sorry for you.

8. It seems that aside from people getting married at 7/7/07, a lot more will get married at 8/8/08. The number 8 character (ba? pa?) is the same as the character for 'wealth' (feel free to correct). So? what are you waiting for? Start planning for your wedding! Actually, for all those of who haven't thought about getting married (yet), you have time until 12/12/12. Why? I don't really think many people will find the date 13/13/13 on their calendar.

9. My bed really kills me. It is by far the most inconvenient bed I've ever sleep on. Maybe that's one of the reason I don't feel like sleeping even though I'm sleepy.

10. For some reason it's just very hard for me to have a close friend on a long term basis. I don't know why, but it sure like a good idea to restrict my relationship with my friends. On the risk of being called sad, it's just very hard for me to fully share my thoughts with someone. It's been a while since I can really open up to a person. Time change... People change... and some thoughts just won't go away... I guess..

I think it's getting to personal, so I'll stop here.

A glimpse of the new year..

#1
The table has shifted. Nintendo wiis are virtually impossible to found across the country. PS3s are everywhere, as nobody want them anymore. Scalpers try to return their purchase after eBay prices dropped below retail. This conclude that people buy wii to play it, but they buy ps3 only to sell it. Those people who bought $3000 ps3 after launch must feel like an idiot now. The battle continues and personally I'm very excited. Will Nintendo win the market share this gen? Will Blue Ray become the next Betamax (the reason that Betamax fail to succeed was because they don't allow porn industries to produce in their format... yeah right) Will Microsoft succeed in Japan? Will people grow tired of the new playing scheme introduced by Nintendo after some years? months? Will ps3 ever live up to their hype? Will 360's 1 year head start make a difference in the long run?

Stay tuned.

#2
Ian Johnson just proposed to his girlfriend (fiancee?) last night. Got that? Now that I have your attention, non-football fans, I'll tell you how last night's game was more than just a game. Boise St was 12-0 for the season, so by logic they should play in the national championship against the only other unbeaten team in the country (Ohio St, also 12-0).

But they didn't. Since they came from a WAC, a 'weak' conference, they had to settle their business in the Fiesta Bowl against the Oklahoma Sooners (which aren't very good in my opinion). The Broncos (Boise St's nickname) led early until midway of 3rd quarter. Then to sum it up, they blew their lead and Oklahoma managed to catch on to force the game into overtime. Oklahoma even lead by 7 points with 1:08 minutes left in the game, but The Broncos refused to give up. Their last play,hook and ladder trick play finally tied the game and forces it into overtime.

Bored? Hang on on with me. During the overtime, it seems that they want to settle the game once and for all. Rather than kicking the extra point for 1, they elected to go for 2 which will win the game. Of course, they would lose the game if they failed. This is bar none the most exciting moment so far this season. They ran the statue of liberty play, which the QB faked a pass to the receivers, and handed the ball over to the running back.

THEY WON THE GAME BY 1 POINT!

One of the commentators said 'It's not the size of the dog in the fight, it's the size of the fight in the dog' That strucked me real deep. The Boise St might still lose if the play Ohio St, but they sure knows how to provide a high quality entertainment. Kudos to you Broncos nation!

Now this is the interesting part. Running back Ian Johnson proposed to his girlfriend, the head cheerleader for the Broncos, after the game during his interview on national television! And she said yes! Wisconsin beat Arkansas with an impressive performance, Penn St upset the ranked Tennessee, USC beat Michigan in the Rose Bowl, but the highlight of the new year belong to the underdog Boise St Broncos!

Clippers vs Celtics - VIP!

Watched the Clippers - Celtics game Wednesday night. Met with Besty and the others on Tuesday night, and Evo, her boyfriend gave me two tickets for the game. So I went with WK ^^

Look closely at our seats. VIP, row 1! ^^ Of course it was not the closest, since those sidelines seats should cost hundreds of even thousands, but it's still pretty close to the court. We even got a VIP parking pass, so none of those time wasted looking for parking space. So much better than the Pacers game a couple years back when I had to sit at the balcony. Blech. Those seats were nothing compared to these.


I'm beginning to love LA already ^^

bit of a story

Some of you might be wondering why I'm writing this entry.

Yes. I'm supposed to be skiing/snowboarding at this time. But the fact is, my knee hurt real bad yesterday and that prevents me to go ski. I tried to force it for some hours, but it got real bad, so I decided not to go today.

Oh well. There's always next time.

Am I upset? Not really. Wanna know the reason?

#1
My Wii got sold for $500 on eBay! ^^

For those of you who haven't followed the video game industry, Wii have become harder to find even more than PS3, although they shipped 4x amount PS3 does. Sometimes, you can still find PS3 on retail shelves, but almost zero chance for Wii. So, there was this rumour that Nintendo would have Wii in-stock on 12/17. Experience says that these babies would sell fast.

So yes, I waited in line for 6 hours on Sunday morning and was #3 in line for the last shipment of the year. This also had a very good story, but would be too long to tell here. Maybe when I got back.

#2
Barely walk back to the lodge yesterday after my knee hurt so bad. After returning my equipment I decided to watch some TV in the living room. I got a missed call from Ryder saying that they have a couple of positions available. So I called them back today and talk to the manager. The phone interview didn't go as well as I planned, but we'll see what happened. Getting the phone call itself already made me feel better despite the fact that I couldn't go ski.

The position is in Lafayette. You know where the Subaru factory is? Yep, Ryder is doing some consulting work for them. Cross your fingers guys. A position with Ryder would mean working in a factory environment and involves talking with clients. These are the kind of jobs I really want.

#3 I just beat the 1:28 odd of the Amazon lottery for a chance to buy a Wii! Amazon decided that it would be fair to put their Wii (and PS3) shipment on lottery so that everyone would have equal chance to get one. They required valid credit card saved to prevent multiple entries. So I bought one at the price of $259.98 + $9 shipped. NO TAX! (6% in Indiana: ~$14) The item should arrive on Friday. Still haven't decided what to do with this one. 20% of my heart says to keep it, 30% to sell it at retail price to someone I know (who I know won't sell it again), 50% says another eBay madness. (Fel anda masih mau tidak? Dipikir pikir dulu ya..)

That's about it for know. It's 3 PM and the rest should be done in an hour. I'm gonna grab some food and visit them at the park.

Later. Hope all are well.

-_-

How the most infamous line in America became a Borat joke:

'I don't know what it means but I want it. NOT!'

=p

I'm so lame...

Kmaren disebut2 gitu sama fraternya pas di gereja.. hauhauha... satu gereja lgsg ketawa semua...

^_____^

I just skipped my last two classes yesterday.
My last classes of the semester.
My last classes of the last six years.

My last classes.. forever?

heuhe..

sekitar dua minggu lagi gue bakal punya hak untung bilang..
'Exam? apa tuh exam?'
'Project? apa tuh project?'
'(some type of school work)? apa tuh (some type of school work)?'

Apologies for those who still go to school.
^^

Selamat datang kehidupan, kita ketemu lagi.

So special..

'special in my eyes
since you’re in my life
always on my mind
so special in my eyes'



Lagi di penghujung film 'Gue Kapok Jatuh Cinta' nih. Gue baru aja nonton untuk kedua kalinya =) Temen2 yang laen, yang ntn bareng gue bilang ini film biasa aja, kalo bukan jelek.

I beg to differ and here's why.

Diliat dari judul nya emang kerasa nggak original dan pasaran banget (and it might be true to some extent) Tapi, kenapa gue ngerasa kalo skarang ini kita justru perlu film jenis begini?

Coba inget2 beberapa film indo terakhir yg kalian ntn. Udah? Coba, skarang apa yg terbayang? Gue tebak ya. Adegan tangis2 an. Adegan jerit2 an. Setan. Hantu. Tuyul. Tragedi. Adegan dugem dengan lagu2 gak jelas. Akting yg terlalu dibuat2 (belaan pembuat filem: 'menjiwai')

Dari kesan yg gue dapet abis ntn filem ini, cman adegan dugem aja yg keinget. Ada sedikit adegan tangis2 an, tapi itu cman di flashback doang. Pendek sekali.

Dilihat dari cerita, ini biasa banget. Tapi justru karena itu gue bisa relate semua kejadian ke kehidupan gue sendiri. Gue bisa bilang 'gila, ini bisa banget terjadi di kejadian gua' Dialog nya biasa banget, dialog yg biasa kita alamin sehari hari. Orang2 yg kebiasa ntn film 'kelas tinggi' dengan dialog2 ber bobot bakal kecewa berat. Orang2 yg nggak biasa dengan omongan2 jorok dan kotor jg bakal tersinggung. Tapi justru ini yg bisa ngebikin gue terkesan banget. Kenapa? Karena emang ya sehari hari kejadian seperti ini yg bakal kita temuin.

Gue akuin, ada beberapa dialog yg kerasa dipaksa banget dalam konteks penggunaan bahasa inggris. Sepertinya emang nggak terlalu banyak orang Indonesia yg fluent ngomong bahasa inggris. Bukan masalah besar jg. Hey, gak ada salah nya orang buat ngecoba kan?

Dari segi pencahayaan dan pengambilan gambar gue bener2 terkesan. Ada beberapa adegan yg gue bilang udah advanced banget kalo dalam standar film indo. Adegan pas salah satu tokoh nya ngebayangin pemakaman dia di masa depan, terus adegan bayangan salah satu pemeran cw nya jalan2 pake baju pengantin, sambil pegang batu bata (I admit this is pretty unreal.. but hey, anything can happen in Jakarta right? After all it is our beloved 'Sin City' ^_^)

Soundtrack lagu2 nya jg bagus. ~vodka pasti nggak setuju sama pendapat gue yg satu ini =p (and it's okay!) salah satu lagunya, 'so special' - Oka feat. Sabria jadi salah satu lagu favorit gue akhir2 ini. Lagu pas adegan terakhir, dimana semua pemeran nya dansa di lantai ballroom kelapa gading sports club (GADING! WOOHOO!! -kampung mode on-) jg bagus banget.

Overall, emosi kita nggak terlalu diuji di film ini. Terus terang aja gue radaan capek denger tangisan2 meraung dari beberapa film indo yg gue tonton sebelon ini. Alur film masih tergolong lambat, tapi film indo mana sih yg nggak? Sembari gue ntn, ngerasa ada beberapa adegan yg bisa di trim sedikit dan gak akan mengganggu alur filem dan msg yg mau disampein sama adegan itu. But hey, what do I know right? It's not like that I have any choreography background or anything.

Kalo diliat2 juga, nggak ada pemeran2 nya yg bener2 special. Special dalam arti cakep ato cantik banget. Dilihat2 dari daftar pemeran, jg nggak keliatan nama2 besar yg biasa kelihatan.

Aneh ya? Mungkin sebenernya emang nggak mustahin buat ngebikin film bagus tanpa nama2 besar. Si Renny bilang salah satu produser nya lulusan anak SMUK 1. Sebelon nya gue jg pernah liat karya independen dari cahyadalamglap production, masih dari anak SMUK 1. Kayanya banyak yah lulusan SMUK 1 yg berbakat bikin film? =)

Jadi kesimpulan terakhir, alesan gue suka film ini sebenernya cukup simpel. Film ini gak maksa gue terlibat di konflik emosional yg dalem, tapi dari 'kedataran' nya itu justru bisa menimbulkan sesuatu yang nggak membosankan.

Sekian.

'ku seduh kasih sehalus sutera'

woohoo!

It's almost 5 in the morning, but I finally finished the challenge. This is the result:


~9% ROI. Not too bad. I bet I could do better given more time. I'm kinda pessimistic that it'd get me into top 3, but hey, at least I tried right? At least the factory's making some money.

Phew.

I just emailed the report along with my peer eval with a note saying that I might not be coming to class today =p

This is one of the days that I can feel good about myself. To tell the truth, I almost gave up a couple of hours ago due to the factory losing money consistently. After 1 hour of ESPN and 2 box of Lovshack, somehow it all worked out.

I need sleep. Badly.

are we there yet?

My head feels like exploding. I've been dealing with this problem since I woke up, and the answers are still nowhere to be found.

'How do you create the best efficiency?' is the question.

This is not a mandatory project. Students were given the option to submit the assignment, with bonuses awaiting if your system makes it to the top three.

I glanced over to the TV screen at the back of my head. Damn. Colts lost to the Tennessee Titans by last second field goal. So much for that.

I sighed. This is going nowhere. I decided to get some coffee, when I saw a half-filled Marlboro lights sitting on top of my cubical. 'What the hell', I thought. I took a piece and headed outside. The weather outside was just horrible. Freezing would be an understatement. I lighted my cigarette and took a couple of puffs. Much better. Some of you might be surprised by this fact, since I rarely smoke in the past.

Don't get me wrong. I didn't start smoking to look 'cool' or whatsoever. Actually, I've been playing hide-and seek with everybody, not wanting anyone to know about the fact. It's fine though. It's not like I'm creating some kind of dependencies with nicotine or anything. Just a little bit something to keep me sane.

As I finished my last puff, I started warming up my car. Damn it's cold. Seriously, sometimes I have to questioned how can people live under this kind of weather and have not gone crazy. Geez.

'One Peppermint Mocha, please' I said to the lady behind the counter. I started to look around the store. Everything was red and green. Christmas is coming. Ever thought that Christmas has lost is meaning recently? Look at all the commercials running on TV. eBay, jewelries, cars. All I can think about Christmas nowadays is angry moms pulling the last doll for her daughter in a packed department store, and confused fathers trying to get everything on his christmas list running around local malls. Have you watched Garmin's commercial on TV recently? If you had, you'll know exactly what I mean.

'One venti Peppermint Mocha, no whipped cream'. That's my order. I hate whipped cream. Not because it's fatty or anything, but it just spoils the taste of the coffee.

I took a sip from my cup. Blah. What the hell is this? I should've ordered my usual white mocha. I went back home anyway. One thing to learn from the trip: wear something other than shorts and sandals when the weather is this cold. Noted.

I got back to my room. The Giants are playing Cowboys. I continued my reading, while occasionally sipping on my coffee. Whoa, it's almost dark. How time flies when you have lots of things to do.

I hear the intro to 'Diatas Normal' playing on the background of my desktop.

"pikiranku tak dapat kumengerti
kaki di kepala, kepala dikaki
pikiranku, patutnya menyadari
siapa yg harus dan tak harus kucari
tetapi tak dapat.. ku mengerti"

I then remembered my previous encounter with one of my friend on MSN. Nothing important, just daily chit chats that frequently happened between us. She was telling me some stories about her boyfriend. Then I asked,

'You must love him so much, huh?'

She didn't respond immediately. But after a couple of minutes an orange flashing lights my conversation bar. I opened it.

'Of course, why shouldn't I?'

She replied.

'Haha, nvm. It was a stupid question anyway'

I added.

Then we talk some other things. But something never left my mind. It has been awhile hasn't it?' I never even thought about it. It feels like part of my heart are turning into stone.

Hatiku beku.

School. Work. Football. Those are really the only three things that have occupied my life in the past of few months. the 'L' word is nowhere to be found.

I reached for another cigarettes, but then I put it back. "My roommates' are gonna kill me if they found out I'm smoking inside the house." So I took some of my school notes from my bag, and start reading. Again.

Damn. I have to do this evaluation thing by tomorrow. I hope my teammates go easy on me, since this would be a huge part for the final grade.

Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.

Gibot just called. He was wondering if I want to watch Sunday Night Football at this place. I told him no way I can spare that much time tonight. I'll go tomorrow night instead for MNF.

What to do now? Hm. Cowboys just kicked a field goal with :01 second left. Two games decided by a field goal today. Whoop-de-do.

I browsed through my list of music in iTunes. Finally settled on 'Damai Mimpi', my mind started to wander elsewhere.

"ingin bersamamu menari
bernyanyi lagu damai mimpi
tersenyum nuranimu
harum nafasmu, mewangi,
hiasi mimpimu.."

I have neglected my guitar for quite a while. It must be out of tune. I remind myself to spare some time playing with it tonight.

I'm graduating exactly two weeks from now. How time flies. With no jobs on the line, I can't exactly say that I'm looking forward to it. I talked about many people, with different opinions regarding this graduation thing.

While I appreciate each and every one of their opinions, I can only agreed to a few. I finally decided that only I can control my own destiny. Meaning that I will make the decision solely based on my fully informed understandings.

'Totally don't know what it means, but I want it'

Why? Why? Haha. I just remembered this HDTV commercial starring Jessica Simpson. Ever wondered if she's really good at acting dumb, or she is just... well.. dumb?

A thought of skipping dinner occured to my mind. Don't really feel like eating with so much work to do. Hm. That might not be such a good idea.

lambaikan tanganmu from side do side
karena semua will be alright

then.. emmh... can't really comprehend what they're singing. 'Sunday Morning' from Soulid is now playing.

I suddenly remembered this 'project' I started with one of my friend from the beginning of the semester. I haven't touched it for a couple of months. Maybe I should look over it tonight when everything's wrapped up. I'm not gonna tell you guys (yes, four of you who have been reading this blog =p) what it is for now, but I promised that some of you might even want to get involved with this project ^^

As for now, I gotta get back to my reading.

Bye now.

dari luar saja...

Di suatu malam, di Extended Stay American hotel - West Madison...


tiba-tiba terdengar suara..

If you want to be a Badger,
Just come along with me,
By the bright shining light,
By the light of the moon;
If you want to be a Badger,
Just come along with me,
By the bright shining light of the moon.
.....

belum kelar sang pelantun lagu menyanyi.. tiba2 terlihat beberapa orang saling berlirikan... dan tiba2 terdengar..

Hail, Hail To Old Purdue!
All Hail To Our Old Gold And Black!
Hail, Hail To Old Purdue!
Our Friendship May She Never Lack.
Ever Grateful, Ever True,
Thus We Raise Our Song Anew; (Fire Up!)
Of The Days We've Spent With You,
All Hail Our Own Purdue!

Meredam suara sang pelantun 'If You Want to be a Badger' yg hanya bisa terdiam bengong tak berdaya...

heuheuehuhe.... ^^

failure to finish

"Yakin nih gak mo ikut ke Purdue?"
"Nggak bisa, hari rabu gue ada exam"

- Jadi kalo nggak ada exam mau ikut? :p -

"The Boilermaker defense allowed 15 points and sophomore quarterback Curtis Painter threw two interceptions in the final six minutes, giving No. 25 Hawaii a 42-35 come-from-behind victory." -TheExponent-

Another failed comeback courtesy of our own Boilermakers :( Inability to finish close games really haunts this team. At least Painter's still a sophomore, giving him the 'still room for improvement' excuse.

Don't feel like writing much.
Overall, the demon from last year's thanksgiving wasn't fully exorcised, but I had a wonderful thanksgiving experience.

Started from the turkey dinner (with games courtesy of AAG), the Madison trip, late night card games, and USC beating Notre Dame.

Great. But not perfect.
Oh that's right.

Purdue 35 - Hawaii 42

Close, but to cigars.

"Sometimes it's good to invest your soul to something that you can't control"

It's not necessarily true, but it might be worth it in the case of Purdue football. You'll get an emotional joyride of your life. Need to be prepared for the broken heart though.

Better luck next year.... IU!

The bucket stays at Purdue!!! This game might not meant much for both of us, right? After all, both teams were unranked, and they play mediocre, if not terrible, football this year.

WRONG!

IU was 5-5 entering the game, and they needed to win to secure a Bowl bid. For those who unfamiliar with the term Bowl bid, that means post-season game. They have the rights to be selected (not guaranteed though) into one of the Bowl later at the end of year (or beginning of new year) with some prize money on the line. IU hasn't been to a Bowl game for God knows how long, and they're hoping to go this year.

Nice try, Loosiers!!!!!

The game was exciting in some way. Both teams committed turnovers a lot in the first half, it almost like a joke! Oh man, you just gotta be there.. it was a funfest.. the student sections were just having fun mocking IU and laughed their asses of as the result of some plays..

I screamed my heart out and almost lose my voice at the end of the game. The game wasn't pretty.. but it's football right? It's not supposed to be pretty.. there are no awards for 'style points' The most important fact is that we won the game, no matter how ugly it was..

Haha.. senior day, and my last game here for a while. I just can't help but thinking: 'Man, I'm so gonna miss this place.. the sight is just so beautiful' I have never felt closer to the student section before. I actually had some conversations with other students who're not my friends. We had a fun time mocking IU (BALL STATE'S BETTER!!! chant) and our own Curtis Painter (4 INT? WTF?) It was just a blast. A perfect ending to a not-so-perfect season.

But it's all worth it.
We denied IU's eligibility to a bowl game, and the bucket stays at Purdue, and we're goin bowlin this year!

GO BOILERS! IU SUCK!

^^

Would you pay $24,000+ for PS3?

wow.. just wow..
and the auction's not not even done..
i'll post the winning auction later in the afternoon..


/update
the ending bid was for $89,000,000.00
It came from a legitimate buyer with positive feedbacks..

The listing is not available anymore.. so I don't have any proof.. eBay or the original poster might have took it down... my assumption is that the bid was illegitimate...

it still sells for a lot tho... $5,000 - $10,000 a piece...

malasss..

hm..
mestinya bikin assignment.. tapi malas berat (ya jelas.. nongkrong depan tv gitu ya)

topik 1
besok saya ada interview sama US Bank. posisinya Strategic Marketing Analyst. kenapa saya bisa dapet? tak tau jg.. apakah saya bisa dapet? kita lihat saja.. hauhaua... basically ini mungkin interview trakhir gue on campus... udah nggak ada lg postingan di career center.. so I'm basically on my own after tomorrow.. heuhe.. tepat sebulan lagi neh sekolah.. it's officially gonna be the last days of my college life.. gak niat phd saya hahaha... (coming up: suka dan duka di purdue.. tapi ntar2 banget ya)

topik 2
salah satu goal gue semester ini gagal.. yaitu mo foto fountain.. jdnya foto pake shutter lambat... ntar gambarnya bisa bagussss banget.. kaya kapas gitu aernya.. tapi skarang udah dingin.. fountain dimana mana dimatiin.. lagi pengen experiment sama black & white.. tapi akhir2 cuaca amat sangat tidak bersahabat... mendung sepanjang hari!!!! jadi untuk sementara ngga ada foto2 dulu....

topik 3
hari sabtu.. Purdue vs IU. IU sucks!!! hauhauha... maap ye Lenn... =p game football trakhir nih... senior days... huhuhu... kangen deh ntar... :( nothing beat football saturdays in the autumn.. this is probably the most thing I'm gonna miss after I moved outta here... huhh.. moga2 menang deh... gak seru banget kalo game trakhir kalah.. bah..


topik 4
kmaren maen2 ke walmart.. ngeliat ps3 di display... mannn, it was definitely a beauty! sori yee... nerd alert. ahahha.... sampe ngeces kmaren gue di kaca display nya (gak dengg. jorok banget :s) $600 bucks tho... people are lining up in front of stores days ahead just just to get one.. gue berani jamin more than 90% who bought the system are not going to use it at home.. most of the systems are just gonna end up in ebay with abnormal prices... kmaren gue liat bid di ebay yg ngejual ps3 for $3500!!!! ok management people... that's almost 500% profit!!!!!! geez.. talking bout shortage.. ada ya yg mau beli system game 35 juta rupiah!!! halah halah.. kaya gini kok bisa ngeluh krisis ekonomi.... bah.. (sirik... biasa.... heueuhee)

topik 5
black in black friday has a new meaning for me.. i'm not going to rant what it's about, it's gonna be too long and painful to read.. let's just say that i despise black friday.. ga ada bangun2 subuh lagi buat shopping.. di tengah2 blizzard.. (kecuali kalo nitipp... soal beda itu hauahuahuha) benernya gue lagi butuh sesuatu sih.. gps.. they're gonna sell garmin c340 for $350 at circuit city... that's pretty cheap... jadi berharap saja demand buat gps ngga terlalu gede.. dan circuit city overstocked on that item... jadi gue bisa dapet tanpa mesti bangun pagi.. atoo.. nitip temen aja ahhhhhhhh... hauhauha... sapa sapa mo pegi? ^^

topik 6
lagi mo jual2 barang di ebay...
1. sepatu - ada yg mo beli gak ya? masi bagus gitu.. pake di indoor doang.. en sama sekali gak keliatan used..
2. lcd monitor - ada dua...
3. tripod - lebih satu..
4. game: final fantasy 7 buat pc
gak terlalu masalah sih harganya brapa.. cman pengen sedikit clear inventory aja.. sama nambah2 in rating di ebay.. gue baru sadar gue bisa nge save banyak banget dengan aktif di ebay.. hehehe... mental gue kadang kaya mental engko2 glodok ni.. jarang mo bayar kalo gak dapet harga murah... jadi pas dapet rasanya puassssss banget.. heuheue...

hm.. buat penutup saya kasih satu foto random ya.. sebentar2 cek dulu di memory card..

hmm.. gak ada yg menarik.. jadi ini dari kameranya gibot..

random topics...

lagi pengen nulis neh... haha... iseng2 aja dah lama nggak.... and I'll probably switch from english to indo in no specific manner.. tergantung apa yg kepikiran di otak aja... hehe...

topik 1:
I'm still pissed that ESPN decided not to show the Purdue - Hawaii game @ the 25th.. It's not like that we can attend the game without spending $600 for airfare and another $600 for accommodations. (gue research loh haha...) How cool is it to spend thanksgiving break at Hawaii? Imagine all your friends stuck at home doing projects, stuck in a blizzard and decided to go to Best Buy/ Circuit City early in the morning just to find out that they run out of everything.

Unfortunately, I might be one of those guys stuck in the blizzard this year. Still contemplating if I should join the mob at Best Buy/ Circuit City (Madison / West Laf? =p) Most probably I'm just gonna stay at home though. Man, I need a GPS badly, but I'll probably just gonna buy it at retail price. I'm officially DONE with black fridays.

topik 2
PS3 is finally released at Japan. check out DailyTech.com to witness the craziness. Some guidance though:
1. Buy PS3 if you really like advance technological stuff. I really believe that it's gonna worth your time. I'm gonna buy it for Final Fantasy XIII :)
2. Buy Nintendo Wii if you're looking for a chick-magnet stuff. Remember GameCube with Mario Kart, Mario Party and Mario Tennis? Nuff' said.
3. I personally hate Xbox, so Xbox 360 never came into my mind. Microsoft's rich already. Besides, it focuses mostly on American games (Xbox is american) which is first person shooting games and free-roam games like GTA. Not my type...

I'll probably wait until the price of PS3 GREATLY reduced before buying. Gak turun2? ya gak beli....

You might want to consider Wii too... it's not ordinary console. Males ngejelasin.. liat disini aja ya.. The most interesting is that you might be able to do some physical exercise while playing this game.. Tertarik?

topik 3:
I'm in graduate school and I'm playing with LEGOs. How cool is that? Kelas gue yg Manufacturing Control and Manufacturing Planning kerjaan nya ya gitu. Ceritanya kita simulate factory. LEGO blocks nya itu materials. terus kita mesti buat suatu barang (which is lego blocks stacked) terus di test (ngetes nya pake 12 sided dice). The process includes assembling, processing (oven boongan gt... di timer) testing and scrapping (kalo dadu nya keluar 12, kita buang) 92% service level... not that good.. hehe..

Seru banget tapi... serunya soalnya mesti mikir berat gimana caranya nyiapin material sebelon mule production. The thing is, you can't just order unlimited amount of materials, since we got charged for unused inventory. Tapi kalo order nya terlalu sedikit, we wouldn't be able to satisfy demand, and we 'lose' money in this manner as well. tricky tricky..

Awal2 sih decide nya pake rumus... tapi terakhir2 kita malah decide intuitively hehe... gue jd inget pas intern di CST/Berger. gue sempet ngobrol2 sama production manager nya (which is a Krannert MBA graduate btw) terus gue dijelasin gmana cara mereka ngatur production. Basically they just tried a method that looks logical, and adjust the methods as the factory runs. Surprisingly, this method has worked pretty well.... (hey, they're still in business... that's pretty good right?)

topik 4
ini ada hubungan nya sama topik ke 3. kmaren di ada yg tanya ke gue -uhuk- jessica -uhuk- "elu kalo cari kerjaan ke perusahaan IE ato EE?" pas gue jawab: IE dia tanya lagi "loh.. company2 apa mau... kan elu IE nya cman master doang.. kenapa mereka nggak ngambil yg bachelor nya IE, terus master nya IE jg..." gue jawab: what's done is done.. haha.. nggak deng... jawaban gue adalah..... dalam 1.5 taon gue master di IE tuh gue udah belajar jaoh lebih banyak hal yg berguna dari 4 taon gue sekolah di EE. bukan nya gue jelek2 in EE, tapi emang fungsi dari kelas2 IE tuh bener2 applicable banget di real world. DASAR2 dari kelas2 ini lah yg diajarin di bachelor IE....

jd apa hubungan nya sama topik ke-3? ya udah keliatan kali ya... apa yg gue belajarin di kelas maenan LEGO itu bener2 dipake di CST/Berger, tempat company gue intern waktu itu........ emang sih.. kelas2 yg gue ambil itu kelas MBA semua... ada yg mirip di kelas2 IE.. tapi gue males ambil soalnya terlalu technical.. basically sama tapi tujuan nya...

Ini yg ngebuat yakin banget... misal nanti company gue bersedia sponsorin gue buat MBA, ato at least gue udah punya dana buat bayar sendiri... gue ambil tu gelar..

topik 5:
back to Purdue football... I just found out that Andy (Andy Tjo, bukan AndyJess) is gonna be back at Indy sometimes next year. I'm gonna ask him to buy us tickets for the Purdue - Notre Dame game next year!!!! =p huhu...

I'm so glad that we beat Illinois last week... ahh man.. we needed that so bad.. I hate Illinois.. I hate Chicago Bears.. I hate them for the same reason I hate IU and Notre Dame football...

Illinois doesn't deserve to have a football team. They even lost to I-AA team, and they're winless in Big Ten for god knows how long... they should've just disbanded the team for good...

Bears... senga2 banget orang nya... If you lose against the lowly Dolphins, and barely survived against Cardinals, you have no right to brag about ANYTHING!!! beat Colts and let's talk football....

topik... keberapa ya?
Wisconsin Badgers: being good at the wrong time. (~vodka jangan ge-er!!!!) It's a shame that BCS won't allow three teams from the same division in the BCS bowls. At this rate, Michigan and Ohio St wil represent the Big Ten in the BCS bowls, and Wisconsin have to settle for Capital One bowl (which is still pretty good). If it turns out that there are going to be a rematch of Ohio st vs Michigan in the National Championship, then the Badgers are definitely going to Rose Bowl, Pasadena!!! LA baby!!! gue ntn ah kalo Badgers beneran maen disana.. heuheuhe...... =p

I really believe that Wisconsin deserves to share the 3rd spot with USC. Yes, they're that good... even their backup QB is good.... :s Have you seen the size of P.J. Hill? masi freshman aja gede banget... gmana ntar senior.. huhuhu.....

Btw, the Purdue Wisconsin rivalry would have to be postponed until 2009. We don't meet again until then. Lucky Wisconsin.... hahaa canda deh linn... gile udah kalah masihh aja bisa nge-boast... =p

topik selanjutnya
bentar lagi lulus... couple interviews... couple of rejections... still no offers... apa gue cabut ke LA aja ya? gmana kawan2? ada saran?

kalo jawabnnya iya... mendingan gue cabut langsung kesana ato liat2 dulu cari tempat tinggal? terus mendingan gue naek pesawat apa setir? hauhauhauha... pusing nih gue... gmana ya... :s

udah dulu kali ye... kayanya mayan panjang jg gue nulis... behh.... gila2 an... dingin banget sih ya skarang...

ya dah saya mo ngapa2 in dulu..
stay warm guys..

nasi kuning + ayam panggang ^^

speaking of being realistic...



hehe..
akhirnya kesampean jg buat nasi kuning sama ayam panggang... enak loh!! ^^

-slurp-

another broken season

Almost everyone will agree to this. Supporting a losing team is so much harder than a winning team. Especially when the team has big expectations riding on their back in the beginning of the season.

I think it's fairly safe to say that Purdue Boilermakers' football team is almost over. True, we might still be able to finish the season with a winning record and go to some medicre bowl at the end of the year. But, after last week 12-0 loss against Penn St, upcoming victories might not have much meaning. It was just horrible. I'm not going to post any pictures this week since, let's face it, there are NO worthy photos worth of display. I looked over the photos taken during the game, and it was just dreadful. Not the quality of the pictures, mind you, but you can almost feel the pain and agony that's facing this young football team.

As I walk through the gate after the game ends, I heard some students said that it was the worst game ever happening at the Ross Ade stadium. I couldn't agree more. 3 points in the last two matches? Guys, this is not soccer!!

The story is always the same.

2004: Purdue went to 5-0 then dropped the next 4 games. Some of my friends decided not to attend the next game, which is Ohio St (we won that game though, and it was quote nice since Ohio St was pretty good that year)

2005: Just plain horrible. Purdue finished 5-6. First losing season in 8 years (need to double check on this). Again, some chose not to attend, giving opportunities for some other people to go.

2006: Three of my friends decided not to show up for the Penn St game. Totally understandable. I mean, who can stand a losing team right? Especially after the beating by Wisconsin. I however, decided to go.

Then it occurs to my mind. Supporting a team is just the same as experiencing life. There's ups and downs. Some seasons have more ups than downs, and vice versa. Some people will experience it more at some period, and some people will not. Some people will experience glory at least once, some people will never during their entire lifespan.

And again, however you want your team to win, there's only so little you can do to help them. Same as in life, you just have to try to do the best you can, and let god do the rest.

I can go on and on about this matter, but I'm expecting a call from a company in approx. 8 minutes, so I'm just going to say one last thing.

Either it is supporting your favorite team, or in life,

.... don't be pessimistic, but be REALISTIC.

Have a good weekend.